Living

Saw this movie today.. Tamasha.. Lately it seems m writing only wen I see a movie.. ;) well this isn't a review, just as usual the movie got me thinking.. Said a lot of things I've said before, more like written abt earlier and a lot of things tht I've been meaning to say/write.. 

We live this life, we all do, but thts all v do! V r just living it, living it by standards some one else sets, by rules someone else mks, start running a race, v cn never win or may b v dot even wanna, cause it's not  race v wanted to b a part of in d first place.. Wat v wanted to b a part of ws lost somewhere along d way between maturity and responsibility, cause yes v all believe tht if v do wat v like, it's not mature and responsible, and v won't win! And all this cause v think wat v want isn't acceptable.. 

Wen v r young, v r in a hurry to grow up, and wen v grow up, then v r just in a hurry, don't know wat where how, but v r.. So actually where's d child in us? Why r v constantly suppressing it? 

N then in all this, cms along tht one person, who gets who v r, probably the only one, who knows ur Greys and still sees ur soo spl, even helps us break free, or pushes us to, but no, v r so used to d wind and grind of our lives, d norms, d society, acceptability, rules, tht well v walk away. Accepting it's not to b, looking away, not turning back, v walk away from tht one person, d only person, who saw d spark, who saw d light in us, d good in everything v did.. 

BECAUSE v r afraid! V r afraid of our own spark.. V started believing wat v think is goin to b unacceptable, to actually b unacceptable.. V hv lost d nerve to try, to tk a chance, 

to do more than just live this life!