Ride along?

This yr has been a roller coaster.. And it's not over yet.. It feels like I've been on d same ride a million times and each time I decide no thts d last one, and still somehw d ride just restarts..

Sometimes I just wish I didn't remember.. Cause every time I get off d ride I hv memories - good and bad, and wen I get back on, those memories are wat hurt d most... 

It not like m not strong enough or m just tired.. Hv a lot of energy left in me, but i dunno.. Can't b on d same ride again n again.. Atleast not if it's not goin anywhere..